Posts tagged poetry

to fix myself for you, when you are the one who should be fixed for me. I’m done drowning in liquor, because to be quite frank my dear, you simply weren’t worth my fucking time.

I know the love is still there, but i dont want it anymore

I hate when someone else sleeps next to you

its driving me crazy and the scene is stuck on replay

yes i loved you, now i hate you

dont come around here anymore.

“this is the generation that built itself away from love where lust is all the rage and beauty is the definition a recipe for inward screams and self-mutilation”- me

Love is something that can never leave, no matter how crude it may be received.

When love falls from sight it simply slips to the back of our minds

Whether to bloom or fester, love is like an orchid, it wilts and it blossoms.

The love that you and I share, may be hidden from everyone else at times

Between you and I however, our eyes lock, dwelling with the pantomime.

Love, I hardly know you, what with disguised theatrics of a ticking stop watch.

You open, close, and rewind again.  

our first kiss had said so much to you

than these lips that utter something thats finally true

I do not wish to be something I’m not

I only wish to be what you will never be

because in the end, thats all that I’ve got.

“I lay four feet under the ground

A shallow grave for my flesh to decay

I am found lying with all the hushed sounds

burned by those fired empty rounds

The silhouette of a decrepit boy

And the shadow of the hollowed joy

With the red void of space under this wooden floor

You brought those wolves that howled at my locked door

I am empty now

This swallowed heart that you had left to decay

I am happy you indulged in my dismay

If only a gun could rub elbows or stand next to you

If only I knew, If only I knew

The night that I died you fell from grace

A knife in my back, that’s forever in place

You entered the room with that cute smile

We had a laugh and you stayed for a lilwhile

I am empty now

This swallowed heart that was left to decay

I am happy you indulged in my dismay

If only a gun could rub elbows or stand next to you

If only I knew, If only I knew

I hope that no one forgives

I hope that no one forgets

I hope that’s what you’ll get

I hope that’s what you’ll get

I’m empty now (If only I knew)

those wolves aren’t howling anymore (If only I knew)

Decaying hearts still beating(If only I knew)

For the love (If only I knew)

That I left with you”

I wrote this song while at work the other day, started writing the guitar rifts. tell me what you guys think of the lyrics. ^_^

“Erase page after page
My irises strained to grasp the main stage
And the fire in my shrine
Is put out in my chest, it’s forever mine

the crackle

the disdain

the fire

the insane

I’m putrid, I’m Sick

I’m vain”

-Ryan Polesko

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bring down the walls, too fine, the corrupted ideas we find in our wonderfully governed home. Inside the home of a wailing child where stigmata may occur

no, disorder of the mind

sex to a crucified child that has been bound by his own mother to be beaten by the one love that will cast out all hallow be thy name to fuck the Marry out of him.

fuck fuck fuck this disorder.”

-Ryan Polesko

only to find maggots turning into flies.”